ahoy there!

Today I’ve learned that it’s even more annoying when you’re annoyed at yourself than at someone else. I feel like hurling something at someone. No, there’s on specific target. Truth be told, I would be more than happy to smash my head against a wall. But instead of letting myself get away with that, I decided to just cheer myself up. Who doesn’t like being happy? (Please tell me you agree with me.)

Here are a few things I did tonight to cheer myself up:

• Napped. Oh the joys of napping/sleeping. I think this was the thing that helped me cheer up the most. Disregard the fact that I ranted in my head to sleep while listening to some pretty angsty/emo songs (My Chemical Romance and The Rasmus anyone?). My friends wonder how the hell I manage to sleep through these songs, but I do. After my glorious nap, I was still quite bitter, but not as bitter as earlier when I was breathing like a serial killer.
• Pretty-fied myself. Hahaha, pretty-fied myself, lmao. Researches say that when you think you look good, you will feel good. Really, it’s perfectly okay to stand in front of a mirror and go “Damn, I look good.” once in a while. You don’t have to dress up for anyone, you can just dress up for yourself. You can also use this excuse to go therapy shopping, if you want
• Laughed at myself. Going back to the previous point, you can see that I laughed at my own pathetic excuse for a word. If I can be mad, frustrated and annoyed at myself, I sure as hell can laugh at myself. Trust me, there are plenty reasons to laugh at yourself. Besides, isn’t laughing healthy?
• Ranted. My own personal private Tumblr hosts my rants. Boy oh boy is it filled with swear words (in both English and Filipino. Spanish just you wait, I will conquer you! *cackles*) right now. They’re mostly directed at myself, anyways. Ranting incoherently helps. If you think you might end up pounding at your keyboard, potentially destroying said keyboard, just grab a piece of paper and write. Scribble. Doodle. Stab the paper? Wait, no. You get my point.
• Write. I wrote poetry the other day I was frustrated. Sucky poetry, but it helped.
• Listen to music. Do not listen to dreary songs if you want to cheer yourself up, common sense. I would suggest listening to instrumental songs with a happy beat so there are no lyrics that’ll make you think. I recently Stumbled on this website that helped A LOT. (What Mood Are You In?)
• Sniff something. No, not pot, I am talking about aromatherapy. Well, not really, because I haven’t got the faintest clue as to what that is. I put on my favourite lotion (Vanilla! Yay, The Body Shop!) and its scent kind of calmed me down.
• Distract yourself. If you keep thinking about what frustrates you right now, you might actually end up smashing your head against something really hard and concrete. If you don’t know how, kindly install the StumbleUpon toolbar on your browser, it helps. There’s also Tumblr, Muxtape, Flickr and Deviantart. The intarwebs is a vast place, my good friend, and lots of treasures await.

So now, not only do I look good, smell awesome, but I am also not as bitter as earlier. (I have a tendency to hold grudges so it takes me a while to un-bitter myself, haha). Eating is also a good way to help yourself, but eating emotionally is not good since it often leads to becoming overweight. Eating can be an addiciton, apparently. I’m sure there are more ways to cheer yourself up when you’re feeling down, frustrated and bitter.

What do you do when you feel like that? Feel free to share your own advices and stuff.

(OH. And be sure to give your mother a hug! Happy Mother’s day to your mommies and grannies and to all the moms you know :D)

This is going to be short since I really have to start studying for math. Just the thought of having to study for this one makes me cringe and makes me want to procrastinate more, but really, I need to fight this urge.

Basically, I asked for a week off from work and they let me have it (like they’re supposed to, haha). I told my friend and he basically told me that I’m going to be bored. Well, I probably wouldn’t be. I probably would be catching up on lost sleep. There’s also one thing I’ve thought of doing this week: running.

I need 80 hours of physical activities to be able to graduate high school (BC education system, why do you torment me so? -woe-), and I should get off my butt and start doing something. So, I will try to do something this week.

And on a random note, I keep on hearing Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis. I really wouldn’t mind, but that song is kinda tied to this person these entries are tied to. It just annoys the fangirl out of me.